Standing at the crossroads...

Day 4, 11:55 pm

Waiting, waiting and waiting.

Finally, I closed my pc and went to bed but I couldn’t sleep. As always, she was in my every thought. I tried not to think of her but that was just impossible. I tried everything to shut my eyes (obviously except sleeping pills!!) but nothing came to my rescue.

Day 5, 12:30 am

So, after every futile attempt to sleep, I again opened facebook and kept on waiting. Though fb chat was already screwed up but it looked worse without her name in the online friends.

Another hour passed. And now, with each passing second, I was becoming more and more restless. I had her phone no after the ‘tt’ incident and I thought that prolly I should message her but then, she was not my girlfriend, so, I decided against it.

Finally, at around 2, she appeared online. 

‘You are coming online now!!’, I said though I was much relieved that finally she’s online and now I sort of thought what kind of silly question I had asked.

‘Yeah, bit busy in packing and all, so, you tell wassup?’

Whenever I thought of her going away in just two days, I became upset. But anyways, I replied,’ nothing much, just usual fb and stuff ;) ‘. Though I wanted to tell her how much I liked her and that I had been waiting for her for the past three hours..!!

‘btw ‘zindagi na milegi dobara’ got released today, any plan to see it?’, I asked.

‘annn, there was one but it got cancelled :( and I wanna see znmd..’, she said.

I tried to imagine the expressions on her face as she typed that last sentence. Anyways, I said,’ yeah..me too, so lets go tomorrow ;) ‘though I knew that this was almost impossible. I mean when a girl is about to leave her home in two days, obviously, she wouldn’t go. Had it been some other time, she prolly might have agreed. Yar, ab itna bura bh ni hun.. ;)

‘annn….’, was the reply.

‘Well, if you think I am a stranger, then, hi, I am Ankur. Now, you know me. ;) ‘, I tried to sound a bit witty.

‘ya ya, sure but I don’t know the show timings ;)’, she replied.

Neither did I. But, still I said,’ aap han toh kijiye, timings abhi bta dete hn ;) ‘

‘yes’, she said.

I knew that she was joking but still, I first searched the nearest movie hall near our apartments and then searched the show timings. It wasn’t that hard. Google always helps. :)

‘9:30 am, 12:05 pm, 3 pm, 5:20 pm, 7:55 pm, 10 pm. What about 10 pm? ;) ‘, I asked.

‘Sure, bit isn’t that a bit early. :P ‘

‘then what about 9:30 am? :P’

 ‘okz, so, gn, sdz, subah uthna bhi toh h ;) ‘. And with that she was offline.

8:30 am

Throughout the entire holidays, I never woke up before 10, but that day, my eyes opened at 8:30 though I knew that she must be sleeping now and that there was no plan to watch the movie. But, kehte hn na umeed pr duniya kayam h…

So, I also had ‘umeed’. For hours, I kept waiting at facebook and simultaneously also kept staring at my mobile phone but none of them beeped.

6:00 pm

Finally, as the clock struck six, I left for terrace. 

Well, all day, I also thought about,’ Should I propose her?’ but was still not sure what to do. So, I decided I’ll think about it tomorrow. After all, I still had one more day.

So, I kept waiting at the terrace, clicked some random pics of the buildings around.

An hour passed, but she did not arrive. The sun had already set. I kept waiting for 20 more minutes and then finally I left the terrace. 

11:00 pm

I logged into my fb account and surprisingly, she was already online. So, without wasting any time, I typed, ‘arre, aaj toh bhut intezar krwaya apne :( '

‘I kept waiting for you all day, aap hi lene ni aaye :O ‘, came the reply.

Obviously, she was referring to the movie while I was referring to our daily terrace meets. So, this went on for a while and then I tried to convince her to come to terrace tomorrow.

‘annn…I don’t think I’ll be able to come tomorrow’, she said.

‘arre, for a farewell party? ;) ‘, I said.

So, I tried everything to persuade her to come to the terrace and finally she agreed. So, after this, I switched off my pc and just wished ki kaash wo samajh jaye...

kaash in ankhon mei chhupi tasvir dekh pati tum

kaash in kaano mei gunj rahi awaaz sun pati tum

is dil par likha h sirf tumhara naam

kaash ye baat samajh pati tum...

All night, just one thought was in my mind, 'Should I propose her?'

P.S: 1. Sorry again as this one too took time.

        2. As usual, your comments, likes and reviews are warmly welcome.

        3. Please give your views on 'Should I propose her?' 

separated or bound to be together?

 Day 3 continues.. 

'Hi :)', she said. 

Well, it had been more than four hours after that 'perfect' evening ended( I hope you remember the last episode.. ;) ). The last time I saw her was when she was entering her house after coming back from the terrace. Ever since I had just been thinking about her. As usual I was online and waiting for her. Then the chat msg popped out.

'Hi :)', she said.

Even this smiley reminded me of her 'smile'. I know I have been referring to her smile a lot but sorry I am just too obsessed with those 'curves' on her lips. :D

'hey... :) ', I replied.

'so, how many people on chat list? ;)', her usual question.

'around 30-35 :D' 

'and how many are you chatting with?'

'4', my usual reply but as usual I was talking only to her.

That chat lasted for next two hours covering topics from the 'chipkali' on her wall to college, profession, studies to relationships. And then finally... 

'feeling sleepy now, good nite, sweet dreams.. :)', she said.

'hey...when are you leaving for college?', I asked.

And then I realized that all this while I had forgotten a very important fact that she was leaving the city in 3 days!!

'monday', came the reply. It was already Friday morning.

So, after bit more chatting, she finally went to sleep and whole night only one thought ran in my mind, "Should I propose her?"

I thought of all the times I was with her( though we had just met thrice! ). I tried to figure out whether it would be okay to propose her as she was going to leave her family, her home after 3 days!

Well, when are talking to a girl for hours everyday, then, you surely are in love. But, remember, its 'YOU' who is in love, the girl may or may not be!

Finally, as I could see the sun rise, I thought probably I should catch some sleep now and decided to think about it the next day.

Day 4

On friday evening, I again went to the terrace quite early though. I was waiting for her to arrive. I was a bit nervous. I still hadn't decided anything for the proposal yet. After listening to 'phir mohabbat' for about 15 times, she finally appeared. In black top, blue jeans and white slippers! Well, if you are thinking to propose a girl, then, probably, its better to note the length of 'heels', she is wearing. ;)

'Does she like me?', I thought as though I was waiting for her but still seeing her there was a surprise! Though this wasn't a preplanned meeting, but still from her expression, it was looking like she was expecting me to be on terrace. 

those eyes searching for someone

those lips trying to say something

and those ears probably wanted to hear something..

On seeing her, for once, I was lost. Prolly, she did say something like 'hi' but I was already lost. Lost in the cold embrace of the wind, in those last rays of the sun and in the blue color of the sky!

So, after the sunset, and after the color of the sky changed from blue to black, we left.

That night I waited for her but she didn't come online. :(
Whole night I just kept thinking- Can we be together ever?

aaj hi toh karni thi unse kuch zaruri baat

halanki thodi der pehle hi hui thi mulakat

unhone kuch aise jadu h humpr chalaya

unke har andaaz ne is kadar h dil ko lubhaya

ki hum hi jaante hn ki unhone kitna h hume tarsaya

aaj na sahi par shayad bat ho jaye apse kal

agar humse kat paye ye intezar k pal..

P.S: 1. First of all, sorry, this one took some time. But, since you all are also in college, then, probably you'll understand my condition. :)
       2. Secondly, thank you for staying tuned. :)
       3. The last few lines of the post are just a modified version of my own creation- 'ye intezar k pal'.
       4. Probably, if you scroll down the blog, then, you may find the original version.:)
       5. As usual, your comments, reviews and 'likes' are warmly welcomed. :)
       6. And I hope, all of you understand Hindi. ;)