the first time when we were together..

Day 2

Well, after talking till 4 am with a girl, how can someone sleep? So, after trying as hard as possible to sleep, trying not to think of her too much, I finally went to sleep. Again, I woke up late. Anyways, yesterday, we had decided that we will play tt today but the time was not decided. I was excited but at the same time, I was also worried as if she didn’t come on fb today, then how will the time be decided. Since I didn’t want to take any risk, so, I was online the whole day. Finally, it was around 4, that she was online again. Without wasting any time, I started the conversation with the usual ‘hi’.

‘hii, so what time did u sleep last night?’, came the reply.

‘You ask what time did I sleep?? I was awake the whole night because of u miss!!’, I thought but tt was the first priority at this time, so without wasting any time, I replied,’ around 4 as usual ;)‘ and also added, ‘ so, time decided?’

‘annn…actually, I couldn’t find the rackets :( ’, she said.

'oh fish! Does that mean she doesn’t wanna play or is she telling the truth?’, all such thoughts started running in my mind and then she further added ,’actually I’ll try once more, and if I find them, then I’ll tell you.’

‘okay’, I said and prayed to God to help her find the rackets. In fact, I even offered God some bribe ;) .

‘But, how will I tell you?’, she asked.

I thought this is the best time to give her my phone no, so, I said ,’ann..if you find them, then msg me at 84********.’

‘okay’, she said and further added,' i gtg now...catch u later..bye tc :) ' and then she was offline.

I also logged out and took my phone in my hand and for the next hour or so, I just kept staring at it. An hour passed but still no message from her side. In that one hour, I received around 3 messages. Each time my phone beeped, my heart beat started to rise but only to find out that whether it was from some property dealer or about some service provided by my service provider. I was starting to lose hope now. I tried cracking some deals with God. And then, finally my phone beeped again. I just hoped that maybe this was the one that I had been expecting. I opened it and it read-

     hii, I m standing near tt table, u also come here- Ridhima

I thanked God for the message. I then saved the no first and then replied –

    Hi, I will be there in a moment :) 

And after typing this, I just rushed out of my house. As I arrived near the tt table, I saw her with two rackets in her hand, looking as beautiful as always. We played for about 40 minutes. This was the first time that we two were together away from the eyes of ‘other people’.

That night again, she was online. So, we chatted a bit. And after she went offline, I closed my pc, took out my phone and kept staring at the recent entry in my phone book and while just staring at that contact, I don’t know when I was asleep.

Day 3

Whole day just passed in her thoughts. But since there was no plan to play tt, so, there was no way to meet her today. I had been trying hard to recall the whole conversation between us over that tt table searching for hints.

At around 6 pm, I headed towards the terrace. As I stepped on the terrace, I was shocked, amazed and surprised! She was standing there! For a moment I thought that I am hallucinating. Then, she noticed me (probably she was surprised too). With her ‘killing’ smile, she asked,’ arre! Aap yahan?’  

Then I realised, ‘oh! This is not a dream :D ‘.  So, I again thanked God for the help and then, sounding casual, I replied,’ annn…aapne kal kaha tha na ki chhat par hawa achhi chalti h, toh maine socha aaj hum bhi feel karein..’

She laughed on hearing that. ‘kafi friends hain aapke, raat ko 4 baje tak chatting chalti h’, she said with a hint of sarcasm.

‘Once you enter college, your friend list will be twice than mine’, I thought. Anyways I said, ‘ hmm, your friendlist will also expand on entering college'.

‘koi girlfriend bhi h kya?’, she asked.

‘looks like she is in good mood today’, I thought. ‘No, do you have a boyfriend?’, I asked.

‘Nopes, so have you proposed someone till date?’

‘Ann..yeah, once proposed’

‘so, what was the reply?’

‘a slap’

She burst into laughter on hearing that. ‘So, have you proposed anyone?’ I asked though I knew that she must have received a dozen proposals till date.

‘Nah..girls don’t propose’, she said sarcastically.

‘Ankur beta! I think it would be better if you start your preparations for proposing her, quickly’, I thought.

And then for the next hour, we walked on the terrace and talked. I just don’t have words for that hour or for that evening. With cold air blowing her ‘dupatta’ again and again, cloudy sky, and sun just about to set and on top of that, her company just made it a perfect evening.  And, occasionally when she tucked the locks of her hair behind her ear by her fingers, I was like ‘maar hi daalengi ye toh!!’

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the beginning

Here comes the next part… :)

1^st day

12:45 am

After waiting for about one and a half hour, I thought maybe she’ll be asleep by now. So, I logged out of my facebook account. As I was going to shut down my pc, I received a message on my cell- ‘Ridhima wants to be friends with you on facebook’. I again logged into my account and was happy to see the number one on the ‘friends’ icon. I removed all the links to my blog from my profile and accepted the request. Then, I again waited. I was now waiting for her ‘hi’. Again, after waiting for more than one hour, I finally thought that I should take the initiative and I was just about to type when she logged out. I also logged out. Then, I turned on a few ‘devdas’ type songs and I don’t know when I was asleep.

11:00 am

I again logged into facebook. After spending 2 hours, basically waiting for two hours, I closed it.

4:20 pm

With no work to do, I again opened facebook. This time, to my surprise, she was online. Without wasting any time, I said ‘hi’.

‘hii’

Silence. None of us typed anything for the next few seconds. She, as usual, broke the silence.

‘So, at wat tym did u sleep last nite?’

‘arnd  4, u?’, though I knew the exact time at which she had logged out. By the way, this also meant that she at least noticed me in the chat list.. :)

‘arnd 2, btw 4! Kya kr rhe the tab tak?’

‘wahi bas kuch logon se chatting’

‘gtg….ttyl …bye tc.. J ‘

My mouth fell wide open but before my reply, she was offline.

11:35 pm

She was again online. I was again going to say my usual ‘hi’ but this time she was the first one to say it. :D

‘hi’

‘hey’

‘toh kya kar rhe the?’

‘kuch ni..bas tympass…aap?’ 

‘bas tympass hi….chatting aur kya!!’

‘hmm’

‘so, how many people are online?’

‘ann….47..ur side?’

’11…how many r u chatting with?’

‘3’, though I was only chatting with her, ’u?’

‘3.. :D…omg..mere saamne wali wall pr chipkali h!’

‘u r scared of them!’

‘obviously…aren’t u?’

‘not until its on my body’

‘lol’

This way the conversation continued.. :)

3:05 am

‘how many are you chatting with?’

‘2….u?’, though I was chatting only with her for the past 3 hours.

‘2…so aaj bhi 4 baje sona h kya? ;) ‘

‘maybe…u r feelin sleepy?’

‘ann..not exactly..but I think I shud sleep now, else I’ll not be able to get up in the morning'

‘hmm..so at what time do u wake up?’

‘8 to 1, u?’

‘normally around 10, btw 8 to 1! Thodi choti range ni h? :P’

3:25 am

‘chalo..bbye..i m sleepin now..gn’

‘ok..gn’, I said but then I remembered that she played table tennis. So, I asked her, ’btw u said u play tt?’

I thought maybe she was offline but then her reply came.

‘yeah…last tym I played wen my sis was here’

‘okay..so there’s a tt table here?’

‘yup’

‘and rackets?’

‘I have them’

And then I finally said, ’lets play tt tomorrow’

‘ann..ok…time kal decide kar lenge’

3:50 am

‘chalo, I m now finally going, bye, gn, sdz :) '

‘gn..sdz..’ and she was offline.


Though fb chat sucks, but I am very grateful to fb for that chat. By the way, this was just the beginning…  ;)

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the 'request'

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So, lets continue the story...

After the first meeting, I was quite desperate to meet her once again. The next few days I just spent in my balcony waiting for her. But, she did not come there. I just wanted to meet her once again. Then, I came to know that she is not at home. She had gone to her relatives for few days. I was too disappointed to know that. More than 45 days of my vacations were over. I thought maybe the story is over. Then, I heard that she has come back. So, my sorrow turned into joy. I again started spending time at balcony. But, no results. She never came to the balcony. I always kept a watch at her main door too. Maybe I may spot her sometime. But, all in vain. Neither I had her phone number nor her email id. I was cursing myself for not having taken that in our first meeting. After talking two hours with a girl, I think its reasonable enough to take her phone number or at least her id. Anyways, all these days passed just thinking about her all day, just trying to convince God to at least fix one more meeting with her. Then, came the good news. I heard that another monthly get together was coming up shortly. I was overjoyed and thanked God for finally helping. Some changes in time and date were made at the last minute for some unknown reasons and I had to wait for one more week now.

Then, finally the night arrived. Just like the last time, this time also I prepared a list of questions/topics so that I do not run out of topics this time too. I arrived at the venue on time. She was already there looking still the same as she was when I last saw her. Dressed in simple clothes without any make-up, she was just looking like a beautiful princess. So, I entered the room with my eyes fixed on her. This time when she looked towards me, instead of moving my eyes, I passed a gentle smile and in return got a sweet and cute smile. :)

The night started well. It started with the ‘passing the parcel’ game. The seats were kept to form a circle (not an accurate one though, it resembled more of a square). Anyways, the game started. It was nice to see our elders saying movie dialogues, singing, dancing and performing small small acts. Then, came ‘her’ turn.  She sang a beautiful song. I was already a fan of her voice and after hearing that song, my likeness for her grew more. Then, came my turn. I picked up the chit from the bowl. It read- dance with your partner. Since most of the people there were married, may be, that’s why that chit was made. Anyways, after reading this, I was just looking towards her. Though I am not a good dancer, but still I wanted to dance with her. The point was how to ask her. But, while I was thinking all this, someone said, ‘Since Ankur has no partner, he will perform solo.’ I was definitely disappointed to hear that. ‘Kya bhagwan! Kabhi toh kuch madad kr diya karo’, I thought.

So, with that the game ended followed by the game of tambola. It was also over soon. Now, everyone started to move for the dinner. I was directly behind her and then I said, ‘Hi’.

‘Hi’, she replied.

Haye! Whenever I hear that voice, I just forget everything else.

‘So, your college decided?’, I asked.

‘Yes’, she said.

‘Hadd ho gayi! Yes-no k alawa bhi kuch bolde yar’, I thought.

After loading our plates with some exciting dishes, we finally sat on chairs. Luckily, I got a chair beside her. I again tried to carry on the conversation.

‘He….you read novels?’, I said pointing towards a shelf containing ‘2 states’.

‘Not much, just read sometimes when I am bored. I have read only fps till now’, she replied.

‘Another fps fan!’, I thought.

‘So, what do you do all day?’, I asked.

‘Nothing much, just sleeping, eating, dancing and tv’, she said.

‘And fb too’, she added.

‘Should I ask her facebook id?’ I thought. While I was trying to decide whether to ask her id or not, she asked me,’ How do you spend your time at home?’

‘Well, the same stuff- tv, sleeping, eating and fb’, I said with a smile.

‘Yeah, fb se kafi time pass ho jata h’, she added.

Her last statement made me think,’ Does she want me to take her username?’

But, stupidly, I changed the topic, ‘Do you play any game?’

‘Annn…I used to play tt, but no one plays here’, she said.

‘Should I ask her for tt?’, I was again confused.

‘What are your hobbies?’, she asked.

‘Annn…nothing special, just the usuals, movies, songs, novels and writing.’ I intentionally added the word ‘writing’. Since she was a Chetan Bhagat fan, so I thought that she might develop an interest in me on hearing that ;) .

‘Writing? What exactly do you write?’, She sounded interested.

‘Just arbitrary, anything, on any topic, usually write during the lectures when everyone is sleeping.’

‘That’s good! I’ll like to read it sometime.’ She said with a smile.

‘Sure’, I said though I knew that if she read it , then, she’ll definitely kill me. She doesn’t even know that I have written around 3 poems on her.

It was then time to leave. So, as I got up, suddenly, it came to me that I still don’t have any way to communicate with her. So, gathering some courage, I asked,’ Your fb username or email-id?’.

‘Actually I changed my id recently, you give me yours, I’ll send you request.’

Oh man! That sweet smile….anyways, I gave her my username, and my email-id too coz I didn’t want to take any risk. I just wanted that ‘the request’ reaches me safely.

Again, after going home, just like the last time, I opened my pc and my fb account. This time though, I was not searching for her but waiting for that ‘request’…

     Whenever I see you
     I lose my senses
     my mind stops working
    but my heart starts beating
    I have lost my eyes to your eyes
   my ears to your sweet voice
   and my heart to your soul

   And before this pen stops writing
   I just wanna say one thing to you
   you're beautiful...its true!

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the first tym I heard her voice...

Well...i know many of the poems on this blog don't actually look like poems but this the first non poetic post from my side.. :D

She was there! Standing at the door!! I was just staring at her and once our eyes met, I immediately turned my eyes to the other side. The room had about 30-35 seats and almost the same no. of people, and since she arrived late, there was only one seat left in the room- the one beside mine's. She started walking towards me, basically, towards the only chair left in the room. As she was approaching, I started feeling uncomfortable and by the time, she sat on the chair, I was sweating!!All my preparation for the evening was gone. I didn't remember a word of my checklist. 

From the corner of my eye, I tried to see what she was doing. I tried to study her face , I tried to guess how she was feeling. “Definitely, she’s feeling bored. Cummon Ankur, start the conversation”, I said to myself. Finally, gathering all my strength, I said ‘hi’ and hoped ki is baar toh reply aa jaye. She looked towards me, her eyes straight into my eyes and man, I was gone! Totally speechless!! For the first time, I noticed her face so closely. She was just 1.5-2 feet away from me. For the first time, I noticed her deep eyes, her graceful smile and her flawless face. And for the first time, I heard her sweet voice…

‘Hi’, she said in a sweet and polite manner.

I was just too lost in her thoughts to answer that. Finally, controlling my feelings and trying to sound normal, I said, “I am Ankur and you are?”

“Ridhima”, she said, with a sweet smile. I was completely blank. No topic coming in my mind. I was thinking what to say next when suddenly she broke the silence.

‘So, what do you do, Ankur?’

‘Currently, I am pursuing B.Tech in Chemical Engineering’, I said. I was expecting a question like ‘kahan se’, but there was no response from her side.

‘So, aap kya….karti hain?’ I stammered a bit. Normally, I stammer in front of beautiful girls and she was just….

‘I have just given my 12^th boards this year and I am looking for a college now’

‘Ohk, science or non-science?’

‘I am a non-med student. Anyways, where are you doing engineering from?’

‘IIT Delhi’, I said.

‘Nice’, she said.

‘Nice, just nice!’, I thought. I didn’t have anything to talk to and she was not helping either...

Just then the unexpected happened. Two more uncles entered the place. With no other person of our age in the room, we were asked to get up and finally, we were shifted to another place. And that proved out to be a turning point. J 

Atleast, now, I was sure that apart from her, no one else was listening our conversation. ;)

And then, started the actual ‘talking’, though it was just a formal one. The topics covered were college, engineering and pcm…but still I was with her for the next two hours. :D

That night, after coming home, I was just lost in her thoughts. I just had one regret that I didn't have her phone no., not even her fb username. I tried to search for her but I guess there are just too many 'Ridhimas' in the world. Finally, with no success, I turned off my pc and went to bed. But, I just couldn't sleep, her image was just fixed on my retina, her voice still echoing in my ears. So, I sat up and wrote :


 the first time i saw your face
 your elegance, your grace
 I was trapped in your spell
 coz you were not less than an angel


 now, after hearing your voice
 you have left me with no choice
 I wish you were here
 though I know that you are near


 I want to be with you once more
 please for once cross that door
 someone please lead the way
 coz I have no clue
 may be its too early to say
 but I think I love you...

P.S: 1. I think i have covered a lot this time. Sorry, but this story isn't that short.
       2. Again, I am sorry that maybe this post is too long but I couldn't help it. I tried my level best to make it as short as possible. :)
       3. I hope you liked the post. :)
       4. Stay tuned as next one will be arriving shortly. ;)
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episode 4..

A sincere thanx to all the ppl who read the first three episodes...i know this is a bit late...sorry for the delay...i hope u will like this...
As I said that there was an event the next day...actually it was a monthly get together of all the people in the flats...and i was very excited to attend it...as i was dead sure that she too wud be there :D


as the sun rose next morning
i started my plan for the night
as i did not want to lose her
especially after that first sight


so,all day i kept thinking
of what to say and what not to say
scanned my mind searching
for any idea that might just
lead me to a way


after scratching my whole brain
i started all again
and this time i made some progress
i made my list
and was happy at my success


only i know how i survived
but finally the night arrived
and finding it hard to resist
and left my home after revising my checklist


as i arrived at the venue
without even seeing the menu
i was looking for that face
and after some time
i saw her entering the place


sorry, but after trying my level best
i still cudn't rhyme the rest
i have tried all the permutations
but i cudn't translate that conversation


but one thing's for sure
that i'll never forget her
or that evening ever
coz that was the first time v met
and that meeting is just impossible to forget.. :)


P.S : 1. I know that i write very little in these episodes but sorry i can't help that...i am just not able to          write more than this.
        2. Sorry again that I couldn't add any conversation in this poem too. But, I'll post a next one soon         containing all the talks that took place between us that evening or maybe night..whatever!
        3. Any suggestions, comments or reviews are warmly welcomed.
        4. Please do tell about any grammar or any other mistake coz I m not that good at English.. :P

episode 3..

Welcome back.. :)


so, facing that eye
i just managed to say
a mere 'hi'
but maybe she didn't hear that
or just turned an blind eye

i stood there in despair
as she went inside
totally unaware
why my 'hi' was denied  :(

was something wrong with my face
or was it lack of elegance and grace
i tried to figure out
but i couldn't trace

and then whole day
i just fought
as she was there
in my every thought

i wanted to meet her again
talk to her and explain
that first impressions are not always right
coz you never know what's inside

and then my hopes grew
as i heard something new
and that ended my sorrow
as i heard there is an event tomorrow. ;)

stay tuned as the story is still not over
and i have many more things to cover. :)